Experiment this..

This is the way I see it:
Most of us come to college to get a career. But really the majority of that whole college thing is finding out who you truly are.
&& we'll all do some sort of experimenting from time to time to figure out exactly that.
We also find our best friends, because the ones you've had in high school go to different schools && not necessarily there for you when you need them because they are somewhere else. But these girls will be here because well, they are here.
We also fall in love, fall outta love, && fall back in. && sometimes it's not supposed to happened like that, or even with the same person all over again, but it happens. It's your destiny.
Overall, it is only us that know who we really are, not our parents, not our friends, just ourselves.
&& I'm not ashamed of my choices that I've made this year because really, they influenced who I am, && I wouldn't have done them if I didn't think it was right.
So let's just put it out there. I am a bisexual. It's been stated on my myspace for like two years now. && just recently did two people in my life make the biggest deal about it. Well, sorry to tell ya, that's who I am. I like girls. I like guys. Big deal. You're the only two with a problem when all my friends have accepted it and it doesn't bother them. They're cool with it. So why can't you? I don't want to say this because it'll hurt you && me.
That's life, that's my life. && I like the way I'm living it.

peace&&love.

Plunket && Plain White T's

I saw Plunket and Plain White T's in concert last night at Legends at Notre Dame and it was beyond amazing.
The bands were hot.
And I got pictures with Plunket.
Definitely check them out. They're fresh.
www.myspace.com/plunket
And check out my photos:
www.myspace.com/pixieonfire

The Party Never Stops

The party never stops

“Pour me a shot”

I yell to the bartender

Oh man, I’m feelin’ hot, hot, hot

“Hey there big spender”

Sitting at the bar,

A nice guy buys me a drink

Sure, why not.

Jack, straight up, I think.

Cement Mixers and Body Slammers

Jose, Jack, and Jim, my favorite men

Brain Damage and Jesus Jackhammers

Don’t forget Captain Morgan

It’s only a little after eight

When a fella says, “Oh sweetheart,

Have another drink.”

Of course, I’m not done yet.

Touchdowns and Dizzy Nights

Dancing with a drink in hand

Shot after shot after shot

I can barely stand

It’s time to go, it’s two o’clock

Who’s going home with me tonight?

One last Screw Driver and I’m off

Before I pass out like last time

The party never stops

It just keeps going on

My friends get worried

But I see nothing wrong

I like to party and drink

I like to have fun

I like to do things I shouldn’t

Things that are really dumb

But what can I say?

I do what I want

Who I am is not pretending

To be someone I’m not

i like older guys

i like older guys. like more than five years older than me. i cant exactly figure out why, but there's just something about the way they act and when i'm with them, they dont make me feel so young, so much like a child.

i'm kinda crushin' on this guy josh, he's 26 and lives in plymouth. i met him thru billie and he's really nice and i had fun that night i met him and we went to culver beach and i almost hit like 18 deer and i was freaking out. and i wanted to kill his best friend because he was so getting on my nerves.

but i dont exactly know what's goin on with us. we're just friends and all and i told him i liked him, but i dont know how he feels.

and then there's d. when i'm with d, i'm a totally different person. i'm not some twenty year old who still lives with her parents and has to come home every night and is bored outta her mind everyday. no, i'm this girl who he gives rides to on his motorcycle, who he loves to cuddle with and watch movies at his house, and who he just calls when he needs to get away. i'm a great listener when he needs to just talk about what's going on in his life. and he doesnt treat me like i'm ten years younger than him. he treats me like we're the same age. maybe i make him feel ten years younger again, who knows. but i love the time i spend with him. but if anything ever did happen between me and him again, which it probably wont, i dont really know what i would do. he's still battling custody for his kids and i'm just living it day by day. i'm here when he needs me.

so i'm kinda torn. the simple answer would be to steer away from both of them. thats what people tell me. that i'm crazy for liking guys so much older than me. but if you were me, what would you do? i have fun with both guys and they're really great guys, you just have to get to know them like i did. but for now, i think we're just friends, in both situations. and i guess that's good enough for me.

turn of events

i wear my heart on my sleeve quite frequently.
and i fall in love real fast.
but when i find that guy i just wanna be with
everything seems to go wrong. all wrong.
and i don't know what to do about it
so i isolate myself from every man i've ever loved
and i hide.
i hide in my closet.
i hide in the dark of my room.
i hide where no one can find or save me.
i hide.
would you help me?